ahah they really dont make much sense or explain anything i want to say. fuck i feel a johnny solis lj entry comin on.:/ ahha jk i really dont want anyone to see this buuut whutever this is a journal no? well dammit i feel funny. not funny haha more liek wierd funny. i really really do believe in love. believe me i know but i dont believe in love at first sight that combined with me not talkin to girls in that way leaves me kinda ehhh well you know ....yeah not too great i love love im like a romantic idiot but all around me are people fallin in love and bein together and all that mooshie stuff. leaves me kinda out. i mean i dont need another person. i can live like this but dayng i know im missin out. fuck i feel like johnny and i know im gunna get my shots called ahah assholes i think im gunna start to make an effort to change this yeah hey why not! im gunna start lookin for my one and only. the right way. :]
on life ahaha seriously tho i love it yesterday was fun at jorgies house me cassy eveylyn johnny and duh jorge chilen playin some guitar hero..:p i hate this weather tho it limits whut you can do outside goshh! dammit! ahaha
hmmm i wanna grow my hair soooper long like ummm i dunno how long tell me how long should i have it? and ill do itt!
sammy and sammy johnny and ashley park and chilis and yesterday was fun too donna and teh crew to teh rescue!
at barnes and stuff and then to jorgie porgies house.
hmmm im tryin to figure this out look i think im ny opinion the reason i dont like to kisss girls or mess around is cuz i dont repeat dont wanna fall for them any of them.
so im not im not tempted well sorta but yea im proud of me. should i be?
johnnys 19th was the shizzz nite last nite! freinds pizza moonbeans partyin more freinds and then today was the shweetest with skating in mexico everyone was watchin us like maybe 70 people. some of them were even taking pics of us , i almost flipped teh big 8 but the last stair kiked my ass litterally. awww man i truly love my life fuck everything else. <3 muah!~
whut the fuck is it why cant i begin a ralationship i push everyone away am i afraid fuck im such a wuss i dont even talk to girls on the phone i dont want to be let down again essssh it has been a looong time since ive even kissed a girl and even longer that ive meant it...:/ i have a love hate relationship with lonliness i love all my freinds that i hang out with but i havent been in love in ages i miss that im not throwin myself at all at others because i dont even think im ready for a relationship yet but why is it that i havent felt that feelin in my stomache when i see that one person
last few days were tite jesse payed a bunch of people like 100 bucks for us to stay in line for th eps3 for like two days we camped teher at walmart mucnhed on mcdonalds and walmart even gave us free frood ahah all we did was skate, camp out, wait in line,play game boy,listen to music,beat each other up,and watch porn and skate vids on the laptop..and of course got paid. we got like 12 ps3 's i think were gunna play em tommorow and also this sat. were gunna get paid for the nintendo we... shweeetums
acoustic song of this band who shall name nameless
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went to cornerstone with rick arnie and frodo skated the mall skated and spent the nite at south padre island with arnold miguel jack david(black man) saw a 12 yr old kid break his arm and his granny ma was goin all ape shit in pharr park of skate she nearly kidnapped jack from valley view
went to worship the lord like thirty minutes after comin back from the island btw before we left the island we stole a quater pipe and a 14 foot skate rail from a baptist church but thats ok cuz im catholic ahah after church went to mexico with maritza and arnie and no im not like everyone else who goes to drink theer* just went to hang and check out some skate spots
skated san juan and pharr and mcallen with rick arnie ed james jack david miguel damien *(skate freinds)
met maritzas sister who seems pretty rad gunna go to watch her play tommorow i think a basketball game next weekend gunna go to film some stuff in mexico pitch in for gas and you should come with im too tired -sam
why is it that people need other people to feel complete i think its lame that you need a person to feel good about yourself or to somehow feel better about yourself i can understand if its that one person but not just anyone ya fuckin lamos you shouldnt move on to the next person just cause nothin happened with the last one plz have a lil more self respect -sam
theres something missing i dont know what it is i cant put my finger on it is it a person place or thing? is it even a noun can it be explained through any literary elements? is it a moment? i wonderrrrrr...hmmm
umm well friday was pretty weird since i was feelin sick and did home work and stayed home.. then saturday went to the skatecompettion switchfoot was having in mission i did good but some guy from chicago won it overall ehh whutever then we finally went to the church fall festival saw bianca and gracie and me and arnie went to whutaburger with them and stuffed out dayng it when is the superman movie comin to dvd?!?!?! holloweeen i hear is kinda sssoooon i think i want to be supermeng its like superman but more mexican i missed church on sunday srry reuben and i passed out and woke up im still a lil bit sick :\
hmm i dont think ive written about anythin important in a while hmmm i think im goin back to skool{wolverines} ahaha 06 and a 1/2 well its kooo hmm kumoris was soooper good today me susie carly{her b day} josh joel jada her freind pete dev dav and jorge and some other gurl man nolana rolls roole!
visited marge also got a bump on my head tryin to be superman in teh swimming pool i quit quiznos :] i dont like jobs but money is nice im skating less and less and im hating it but i dont have much enthusiasm for it much anymore fuccccccccck ok whutever went to the beach to go skate with amanda reuben johnny and davila it was funnnz i meta girl with a pretty voice on teh phone also {no im not in love er anythin} but shes koo dav jorge and i are thinkin of a particular bayside show in new york who knows we mite be there and carly joel and i are planning one to europe well england to be exact but we have to collect like a 1000 each dayummmm fuuuck man i sooo want to move into the countryside witha two story house white a pond right beside it the trees are of trees that wich i will grow up on and under and gentle summer skies
and a ford pickup truck all messed up all hic like
i hadnt seen sal skate in forever i think im gunna buy his skateboard for 40 buxx its too bad... sal was such a good skatboarder :[[[[ o well went to cirkle k and saw mark and tori i was with johnny we were slurpin some thirsties!
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